- So, after posting about our second thoughts, I called our social worker. Intending just to see if changing our mind was an option – and to get her opinion on things.
- I got a call back from her – with 3 other supervisors on the line – getting drilled about what changed. I felt bombarded, but understood the difficult position I was putting them in (since the baby had been matched with a pre-adotive family yesterday). They wanted an answer on the spot on whether or not we wanted the baby.
- They called A and bombarded her too. She said she wanted the baby.
- We waited…hands shaking, stomach twisting, wondering if we did the right thing…wondering if we were about to get a baby
- Got a call that they were going to have an emergency meeting to decide where the baby should go. Felt at peace knowing the decision was off of us and onto someone else.
- Got another call. They decided to keep things as-is and place the baby with the other family. I cried, but my heart already feels less broken than it once did knowing I did all I could.
- The other family appreciates the sibling bond and wants contact and visits. They have 2 sons and are excited to welcome this baby girl. It’s a 2 dad family.
Bittersweet.
I didn’t think about the “littles” factor, which is interesting because (obviously) it’s not impractical in the biological sense to have 3 kids under 4 (if I have that right).